by Sylvia Day
“It is insanity, my l–lord.” Her voice broke as he continued to fondle her intimately. “With a small ch–child dependent upon me, I cannot afford to go in–insane.”
“There is only one cure,” he murmured. “Shall we administer it?”
She shook her head, but lack of energy gave the movement no strength. “I do not understand . . . what is happening.”
Justin breathed deeply. “We are becoming lovers, sweet Sophie. Finally.”
He tilted his head and took her mouth. She gasped at the contact, the tingling of her lips urging her to press them hard against his. Her angle was awkward, but she did not care. The kiss was perfect, his lips so soft, yet firm, the taste of him dark and delectable. She could not temper the ardent way she answered him. Her response was instinctual and greedy.
The groan that left his throat made her shiver, so filled with rough longing and ravenous need. He licked deep inside her, his tongue gliding back and forth against hers, the measured tempo blatantly erotic. She whimpered softly as tension coiled in her womb. He pulled back at the sound, breathing harshly. “Stay with me tonight.”
Her lower lip quivered, her thoughts scattered and unable to settle. Justin licked the soft curve of her mouth, his touch so reverent it coaxed a tear to blur her vision, then slip down her cheek. He wrenched himself away. She felt his loss keenly; the lack of his warmth left her cold, the lack of his support left her shaky.
“Damn you.” The look he gave her scorched. “I can make you stay. I can make you beg me to allow you to stay. But that is not what I want. You will give yourself to me. I will have you no other way.”
Sophie turned to face him, lifting her fingers to press against her kiss-swollen lips. “You have always . . .” She reached behind her and gripped the knob.
“Always what?” he asked gruffly, the lust within him a palpable thing, barely leashed.
“Always been too much.” With a quick pivot, she opened the door. “Good night, my lord.”
She fled, leaving him standing there staring after her.
George whined softly. Edward paced at the threshold.
Justin knew just how they felt.
CHAPTER 3
“Lady Sophie said something to me last evening that perplexes me,” the marquess murmured to his mother the next morning as they descended the stairs to the lower floor for breakfast.
“Oh?”
“Yes, she said I have always been ‘too much.’ I’ve no notion of what that is supposed to mean.”
Her mouth curved innocently, an affectation reinforced by her pale ringlets and light blue gown. “Interesting.”
He glanced aside at her. “Do you know what she is referring to?”
“Hmm . . . Perhaps she means to say you are overwhelming.”
“Yes.” Justin scowled. “She said that, too.”
“Truly? How did I miss this discussion? I recall you two sat quite some distance from each other in the parlor after dinner.”
“Never mind that,” he muttered. “Can you explain what the devil she is talking about?”
She linked her slender arm with his. “When you both were children, she used to make up stories about you. You were a ‘prince’ most often, though sometimes when you were surly, you were cast as a toad or an ass.”
He choked.
“I noted something in her stories. You were usually set atop an intimidating pedestal. A character who ruled over all with an iron fist and nary a smile. She would speak of you with awe.”
Justin shook his head, frowning. “I was a boy.”
“A very serious boy,” she corrected. “You changed a great deal after your father passed on.”
“I have a great deal of history to live up to.”
“Yes, you do.”
“She has a bastard child.”
“Yes, she does.” The dowager patted his arm. “Your father and I didn’t wait either.”
His eyes turned heavenward. “I could have lived my entire life without that knowledge, Mother, and been quite content.”
“Stuff. Don’t be prudish.”
Heaving out his breath, the marquess prayed for the rest of his day to improve upon his morning. He had spent restless hours the night before contemplating Lady Sophie and her circumstances, and how he could have her.
Had she stayed the night with him, it would have been something he would have regretted as much as she. A man of his station could not marry a woman in her circumstances; she was absolutely correct about that. Which left him with only one option—to take her as his mistress. It was an offer he could not make to her, not to Sophie. He respected her too much to suggest such an arrangement; the mere thought sickened him.
But not having her at all was impossible. He would have her. He only needed to discern how.
His mother shot him a narrowed side-glance as they reached the parquet floor of the foyer. “I should like to see a man retain his virginity until marriage.”
“How progressive of you,” he murmured.
“With all your rumored excesses with females of unsavory reputation, I would think you’d appreciate a woman with a healthy appetite for sexual congress.”
“I will not discuss anyone’s sexual appetite with you, not mine and most definitely not yours.” He steered her toward the dining room.
“Why not?”
“I would rather go to the tooth-drawer’s,” Justin muttered, “or wear a hair shirt.”
He assisted her into her chair at the end of the table. “I have decided to remain in residence for a few more days, but that does not mean you should send for the parson. Do I make myself clear?”
The startled, yet hopeful glance the dowager bestowed on him over her shoulder made him smile and bend to kiss her cheek. God help him, he adored her, daft as she was.
That same kiss—when witnessed by Sophie as she entered the dining room—inspired tender feelings of a different sort. Her stomach fluttered madly in response. She came to an abrupt halt in the doorway, her grand-mère’s arm wrapped around hers.
“See?” Lady Cardington whispered. “A good man. Do not let that stiff-as-pudding exterior fool you.”
Sophie could say that she wasn’t fooled, not after visiting his rooms last night, but she held her tongue and shivered when he straightened and caught sight of her. The look he gave her flared instantly from innocuous to indecent.
“Good morning, my lord,” she greeted, in a voice remarkably composed.
He approached them with that animal grace that made her breathing shallow. All the incongruities about him intrigued her so much. The unflappable deportment mixed with latent sensuality. The dry wit mixed with the wicked gleam in his eyes. Arrogantly arched brows over glances filled with pure male appreciation.
Such as the glance he was heating her with right at this very moment.
Sophie took a deep breath. She had chosen her day gown of soft green trimmed in darker green ribbon because it was her best. The long sleepless night had been spent wondering if the marquess’s attraction to her had been spurred by the late hour or if he would still desire her in the light of day. Now that she knew the answer, she had even more to consider.
She held no illusions. Nothing could ever come of this attraction. A man of Justin’s station could not marry a woman in her position and mothers did not become mistresses, at least not this mother. Despite this, she worried that she would succumb to his seduction if she remained under his roof. He had awakened a hunger in her that had gnawed at her all night. She could not take the chance that feeding it would not appease it.
“Lady Sophie,” he murmured in that warm, rich-as-honey voice. “Lady Cardington.”
Fontaine took her grand-mère’s arm and led her to the table. Sophie followed. Once the countess was seated, he turned to her. “Shall we?”
He gestured toward the covered salvers on the buffet. She nodded and joined him, taking in his fine form so elegantly displayed in brown breeches and coat, with a multicolored embroidered w
aistcoat to counter the austerity. It suited the man he had become, somber yet possessed of a more colorful side that he showed only rarely.
“You steal my breath,” he whispered.
She looked away, afraid her expressive face would reveal too much. “Thank you.”
“Thank you. Already my day is complete, now that I have seen you.”
As Fontaine reached for a plate, Sophie reached for the pepper with a shaking hand. As she sprinkled the spice into her palm, she glanced at the two women at the table and noted that they were engrossed in a discussion. She exhaled sharply.
“Do you remember the time we picked flowers and I had a reaction to one of them? The pollen or some such?”
He stared at her quizzically. “Of course I remember. You sneezed for hours.”
“Do you recall the treatment?”
“It was long ago.”
“I changed my garments, blew my nose, and applied a cold compress.”
“Are we reminiscing?” His mouth curved fondly and she was struck by guilt. “If so, I remember more pleasant memories.”
“Forgive me,” she whispered. Then she lifted her hand and blew him a kiss, which also served to blow pepper—
—right up his lordship’s aquiline nose.
“Good God!” he shouted, staring at her in wide-eyed horror. Then he sneezed.
And sneezed.
And sneezed.
“Dear heavens!” the dowager cried, pushing back from the table in a rush. “What is the matter with you, Fontaine?”
His reply was a sneeze. Then another. And another. He doubled over, sneezing like a madman.
Patting his back sympathetically and ignoring the fulminating glare his reddened eyes shot in her direction, Sophie said, “I cannot be certain, my lady, but it appears he is having an olfactory fit of some sort.” She leaned over and stared at him, then leapt back when he sneezed violently.
“Heinous!” he gasped at her, covering his mouth in a vain attempt to curb his pulmonary spasms.
“What could it be?” the dowager asked, as she hurried over to them. “I have never seen him like this.”
“He is having a paroxysm, obviously,” the countess pronounced, joining them at the buffet. “A violent reaction to something that does not agree with his constitution.”
“If he has never been this way before, perhaps it is my presence that distresses?” Sophie suggested.
“Ridiculous!” the countess and dowager negated in unison.
Sophie shrugged. “Of course you both would know better than I, but it seems that the offending smell would have to be recently introduced, and I just thought—”
She was cut off by more sneezing and offered a sympathetic glance that was met with a scowl. “It would probably be best for me to break the fast in my room. If his lordship improves, then we shall know it’s me. Perhaps my perfume? He told me yesterday evening that it was”—she winced—“not to his liking.”
“My lord!” the two women chastised, sounding every bit like offended mother hens.
“Vixen,” Justin hissed.
“Fontaine!” the dowager protested. “It is not Lady Sophie’s fault that your olfactory sense is overly sensitive. Personally, I think she smells lovely.”
“He could be allergic to me,” Sophie continued, raising her voice to be heard over the noise the marquess was making. “The removal of my person should rectify the problem. If he worsens, then we will have to search for another culprit.”
Stepping gingerly away, Sophie noted the watery eyes and reddened nose of the Marquess of Fontaine, and felt odious. But an hour or so of discomfort could spare them a lifetime of regret. When considered in that light, her actions were somewhat less reprehensible.
“I do hope you feel better soon,” she said to Justin, meaning every word.
His lordship replied with a galvanic sneeze.
* * *
“Has Lord Fontaine’s condition improved?” Sophie asked her grand-mère as they sat in the private sitting room that bisected their two chambers. Decorated in pale blue and white with delicately carved furniture, it was a relaxing retreat, yet Sophie was anything but soothed.
“Yes.” The countess sighed. “He felt better soon after you retired.”
“Oh, good.”
“It is not good. Not at all.”
Sophie looked down at the book in her hands and felt awful to have caused the disappointment she heard in the beloved voice. “You can still enjoy your visit with Lady Fontaine. I can keep myself occupied.”
“That is not the point. Fontaine is a powerful man who occupies the highest strata of society. His friendship is extremely valuable, and he has a tendré for you.”
“He does not!” Sophie felt the blush sweep up her cheeks and into her hairline. How obvious was the attraction between them?
The countess shook her head. “Child, he may have grown past it now, but he was once quite smitten with you. Affection for first loves lingers for a lifetime.”
“He was not smitten!” she denied vehemently, even as her heart leapt at the thought. “I would have known if he was.”
“I wondered if you were blind to it.” Her grand-mère sighed. “Why do you think he accompanied his mother so often? A man of his station had more important matters to attend to.”
Sophie snapped her book closed and rose to her feet, agitated. “You are mistaken. He . . . he . . .”
“Do not think to say that he came because of his mother. Fontaine is not the type of man to be tied to any woman’s apron strings.” The countess abandoned her needlepoint on the small walnut table beside her, and linked her fingers in her lap. “Did you never wonder why he ceased to visit after your betrothal was announced?”
Sweat misted Sophie’s forehead. “He was always so critical . . . so chastising . . . he—”
“Critical? Or concerned? You were forever involved in some scrape or another. You were angry and unruly, most likely due to the premature death of your parents. You took unnecessary risks and defied convention. I was worried about you, but knew that the more I intervened, the more you would resist. I expected you would outgrow such behavior, which you did. However, Fontaine was less patient.”
“He wanted me to be someone I am not!”
“He wanted you safe. Did he ever ask you to curb your mischief? How often did he depart with ruined attire from following you into another mess?”
Spinning away, Sophie found herself breathing with difficulty, images from the past rushing forward in a deluge. “I don’t know . . .” Her hand lifted to her chest and rubbed ineffectually at the ache there. She wondered if she had hurt him in her ignorance. It pained her dreadfully to think of it.
“He appears to hold no ill will toward you, and his support could do much to improve your circumstance. It is unfortunate that he has acquired intolerance for your person.” Her grand-mère studied her a moment and then offered a smile. “Perhaps you could refrain from wearing your perfume?”
Sophie rubbed the back of her neck. “That will change nothing. We are completely unsuitable. He prefers blondes, such as Lady Julienne—”
“And you prefer brunettes such as Langley.”
“Yes, well . . .” She had adored Langley, loved him madly, had thought him the most charming man in the world. But she lusted for the golden marquess. Hungered for him. Ached for him in unmentionable places. When he entered the room, her body hummed with energy that wanted spending in a bed.
But she was also frightened by that need for him. How could she, a woman of so many faults, live up to the expectations of a man who seemed to have no faults at all?
“Regardless”—Sophie cleared her clenched throat—“I have Thomas, and Lord Fontaine requires a woman as different from me as night is to day. Even Rothschild washed his hands of me.”
“Your brother is a self-centered idiot.” The countess patted the vacant seat next to her on the gilded settee. “He will have his comeuppance one day. That is the way fate works.”
Sinking into the proffered space, Sophie leaned into her grand-mère and set her head on the frail shoulder. The scent of jasmine made her eyes water, the memories of a less complicated time bringing sadness. Now she was looking at the past with new eyes, remembering earlier conversations with new ears, feeling new emotions.
Wondering what she would have done then, if she had known what she knew now.
CHAPTER 4
When the knock came to Justin’s bedchamber door after dinner, the smile that curved his mouth was mirrored inside him. George and Edward immediately rolled to their bellies from their previous positions on their sides, then they padded over to the door at the same time Sophie’s husky voice drifted to his ears.
Justin rose from the chair before the fire. “Show her in,” he said to his valet, “then you may go.”
Inside him, something wild coiled tight, prepared to spring. But when Sophie came into view with sad eyes and her lower lip caught nervously between straight white teeth, it quieted abruptly. She was wound up as well, but not for the same reasons he was.
“Who knew such mischief could hide beneath the exterior of an angel?” he murmured, attempting to calm her with gentle teasing.
She was dressed in deep blue this evening, the cut of the bodice and sleeves so painfully simple that on a lesser woman, it would have been plain. On Sophie, however, it allowed her lush figure to take the stage. She had kept herself sequestered all day, tormenting him with the knowledge that she was under his roof, yet unreachable.
With her head bowed, she said, “I meant no harm.”
Her palpable unhappiness disturbed him. “Why do I feel that you are upset about more than my inability to smell a blasted thing all day?”
“I am sorry about that, too,” she said contritely, startling him by stepping closer and running the tip of her index finger down the bridge of his nose. The innocent touch nearly undid him. It was the first intimate connection she had ever initiated. “I thought only of escape.”
“Escape?” he asked gruffly, his body reacting to her proximity and the scent of her skin.
She stepped back and clasped her hands. “Did I misunderstand our previous relationship?”