by Ella James
“Jesus, do you charge a fee?”
She smiles brightly. “Just offering a little neighborly input. Since we’re on less hostile terms now. We are on less hostile terms, right? Or was that a drunken hallucination?”
Something warm spills through me. Maybe shock. I shake my head, belatedly. “Not a hallucination.”
I stride back toward the pumpkin guts and get another armful.
“Bless your heart,” she says in an exaggerated twang.
“Yeah, yeah.” I dump the guts in the garbage and offer her a waggle of my brows. “Sorry for the loss of Pete. May he rest in peace.”
With a stupid salute that helps me avoid her soft brown eyes, I tear off toward the cemetery, glancing down at myself as I go.
Marley
“Since then, I’ve seen him three more times,” I murmur as we wander underneath an unmanned LuLaRoe tent, petting all the pretty leggings.
“Mmm, these pirate ones.” Kat holds a pair up.
“Festive.”
It’s the last weekend before Halloween, and old town Fate has been transformed into a mini carnival surrounded by craft booths and colorful tents: the annual Fall Festival.
Kat and I have been wandering the median in front of Fendall House, but we’re working our way toward Main Street, where, in the bank parking lot, there’s a Ferris wheel, a go-kart track, and a water-dunk machine that I’m signed up to sit in for work. Freaking disenfranchised children fundraiser. Who can say “no” to that?
“I think I need these pumpkin ones for sure,” Kat says, tucking them under her arm. “You should get the skulls.”
I take them from her. “Yeah—I should.”
“So you didn’t finish. What about the other times?”
I smile, sipping a peppermint latte I bought a few booths back.
“You’re enjoying this.” She glares as we hand our cash to a high school kid.
“A little. That’s my right as someone in the world’s most awkward situation. So anyway,” I go on, softly; Kat and I take our receipts, and start walking again. “After the pumpkin incident, I got up the next day, and there was a pumpkin on my porch. With a sticky note stuck that said ‘Pete II.’”
Kat gapes, and then emits a tiny squeal. I jab her with my elbow as we pass a booth where kids are getting faces painted. “Shh, you hussy!”
“He bought you a new one. Marley,” she coos.
“So anyway, I thought of asking him to carve up Pete II with me, but it seemed like too much, you know? So I haven’t carved him yet at all. I took a Polaroid of Pete II with a baby blanket wrapped around him and wrote ‘thanks for bringing me home, stork,’ but let’s be honest—that was weird as hell. It got stuffed into a drawer. I then decided I would meet him on the morning run—we’re both doing a morning run, or had been, actually since we were together. Can you believe we both kept that habit all this time? But anyway, hear this: he changed his running time. Or stopped running.” I drop my tone another notch as we stroll past a church booth where some kids I recognize from the clinic are playing the harp, and a friend of ours from high school coaches them; luckily, her back is to us. “So a few days ago, I was off for the day because the office was being re-painted, and I watched and listened for him. He’s now jogging midday. When I’m not there to ogle him, I guess. Dear God. Anyway, I took some trash out around the time he was coming back, and I said thank you for Pete II.”
“Ooh, and how was that?” Kat asks, her gaze stuck to a tent decked out with Christmas décor.
“It was pretty awkward, actually. Not sure if it was me or him, but he barely even interacted with me. Acted almost pained, like he was in a huge hurry to get inside,” I report as we pass a cob-webbed tent with a hand-painted sign that reads ‘Ghost Fortunes.’ Something about the sign catches my eye, and I have to laugh when the tent’s flap swings open and a large, cloaked figure emerges. The fortune teller, tall and broad, is covered with a sheet: all white, except for eye holes.
Kat giggles. “What’s our ghost fortune, Marley?”
“I don’t know. You wanna see?”
The ghost nods, holding up a sign that says, ‘Ghost Fortune: $10. Proceeds to Carnegie Library Read for Leadership program.’
“Okay, let’s do this thing.” Kat hands the ghost two tens. I hand over two more, winking at our ghostly fortune teller. “For the kids.”
The ghost nods and gives a thumbs up, revealing large, masculine hands. Then he sweeps the tent open and beckons Kat inside a funky, bead-draped space with lava lamps and a huge crystal ball. The entrance flap doesn’t close completely, so I watch as Kat holds her hand over a little table, and the ghost leans in over it. I hear Kat giggle, followed by a soft exchange of words.
She smiles again as she says, “That sounds perfect.”
A few moments later, she emerges, mouthing something to me. Lip reading is definitely outside my skill set, so I shoot her a look that says later and follow my ghostly host into his abode.
With walls of white fluttering around us, I sink into a black bean bag and watch the ghost sit behind his table: a scratched-up, piece-of-crap, wood number with a large, fake spider perched on the edge and a sticky eyeball stuck beside the glowing, purple crystal ball.
The ghost nods and makes a come-hither motion with his fingers, and I rest my hand, palm up, on the table.
He reaches out and cradles it in both of his. As his big hands surround mine and a finger drags over my palm, I feel the air slip from my lungs. Gabe. I know it’s him before I look into his eyes.
“Mmmm,” he murmurs in put-on tone that doesn’t sound like him. He drags his finger over my palm, which wastes no time starting to sweat.
“Do things look good?” I breathe, trying to sound light-hearted.
Gabe’s eyes are hot on mine as he traces the middle line on my palm.
“They do.” His voice is a rumble I feel between my legs.
He draws my hand closer to him, and I feel chills spread over my skin. Gabe traces the outline of my thumb.
“You moved home,” he says, in that ultra-low, fake, ghost voice, his cool fingers caressing my wrist.
I nod slowly.
“To an old house, very old, with many spirits.”
My lips twitch.
“Also, there is someone else there. Someone…” He closes his eyes and rocks slightly. “Very attractive.” His eyes open. “But not very nice.”
My stomach sprouts a pair of wings and starts to flutter. “How’d you know?”
He nods at the table where our hands rest, at the crystal ball.
I bite my lip, which sort of wants to smile. “You’re right, Ghost Medium. My downstairs neighbor is a total fucking asshole.” I lean closer. “Huge dick,” I whisper. “And I do mean that in both ways.”
I can see Gabe’s eyes go squinty with his hidden smile—or, more likely, smirk. I can feel him trying not to laugh. His finger, paused in its perusal of my palm, starts tracing again. “Has this bad neighbor caused…unhappiness?” he asks, making me want to laugh at his ridiculous voice—even as my pulse races at the soft stroke of his finger on my palm.
“You know, honestly…” I bite my lower lip for effect. “I think he may be under the impression that I care more than I do. Like, he’s Fate’s VIP, this neighbor, but to me, maybe he’s just…a boring neighbor.”
I can’t hide my smirk, and he can’t hide the way his eyes crinkle. “Is that right?” he asks in his normal voice. He coughs. “Is that right,” he repeats in ghost-tone.
“Kind of a been-there, done-that sort of thing, you know what I mean?”
I can see his jaw drop, even through the sheet. He drops my hand, then grabs the crystal ball and tugs it closer. He holds up a finger. “One of my ghostly brethren has a message for us…”
“Is that right?”
He nods, running his palm around the crystal ball, which shoots out yellow sparks.
Gabe shuts his eyes. All at once, he flips them open and leans forward. �
��Your neighbor is a wizard, Marley.”
I scoff, stifling the howl I want to let loose. “Is he?”
“It seems so.”
“I can see how he might be under that delusion,” I say. “He’s a little kooky, by profession, in fact—but I’m not so sure your source is right on this…”
“Oh yes, he is definitely right. And the minds of wizards, they are very readable to ghosts…”
“Are they now?”
He nods. “So I have insight I can offer you.”
“Well, I’d love to hear this, then, Ghost Medium.” I lean forward.
Gabe leans closer too, his gaze burning my own. “Your neighbor is, in fact, an asshole. Since you moved in, he has been a dick most of the time.” He grabs my hand again as my face flushes red hot. “So this is my message: It has nothing to do with you. Only with him.”
I swallow, so thrown off, I have to take a second to gather my thoughts, lest I blurt something out. I look down at my hand, still palm-up on the table, and feel a veil of surreality shimmer over both of us. After a deep breath, I glance back up. “So why’s he being that way? What’s the matter?”
His eyes shut, and he gives a quick shake of his head. “Sometimes an asshole is an asshole.”
“That sounds nebulous. And possibly excusatory. Surely that’s not true. And anyway, sometimes this person does nice things. I think he’s capable. In fact, lately, my neighbor hasn’t been so bad.”
He takes my hand again, and rubs along one of the lines. “That’s good to know. I’m glad to hear no hauntings will be needed,” he says in his low ghost-voice.
“No. I think no hauntings will be needed.”
“Very good.”
“This is a good disguise for Mr. Famous,” I whisper, with a small quirk of my lips.
What he’s doing with my hand… He’s tracing in between my fingers.
“Yeah,” he says, and the word sounds thick and heavy. Tired. And just like Gabe. He’s dropped his faux voice as he says, “Trying to stay in the shadows. For now, at least.”
My eyes shut as he strokes the base of my palm. I pull them open and find his hot on my face. “Does everybody get this kind of séance and palm reading,” I whisper.
He blinks, then lets go of my hand. Without another word, he stands and waves me toward the door. “Goodbye for now.”
“Goodbye,” I snort. I wait till Kat and I are well beyond ear shot to growl, “Your future looks grim, Kitty.”
“I tried to tell you,” she hisses.
“You failed.”
Eleven
Gabe
I watch Marley in the dunk tank, smirking underneath my sheet as she gets pies hurled at her in the name of charity. Almost two hours later, I hear her trudge up the stairs to her apartment. Shortly after that, she starts her shower.
Marley in the steamy shower, whipped cream sliding down her body…
Fuck.
I’m not jerking off again today, so I pull on my sneakers and hit the pavement. There’s another day of festival tomorrow, so the booths that crowd the medians are battened down. To my left, down toward Main Street, I can see fluorescent lights illuminating rides, the blinking, neon colors spinning with the Ferris Wheel. I hear voices, smell popcorn and funnel cake.
Best to run the other way.
As I find my pace, I think of New York. It’s not often I allow myself to wander there, but maybe it’s the smell of sweets, the distant sound of carousel tunes.
“I want the panda, Daddy!”
“Are you sure you want to ride a panda? Pandas in the wild aren’t very fast.”
“But we’re not in the wild. We’re at the boardwalk!”
Funny how I used to laugh at runners. Those who ran at night, on snowy days, in early morning. Who the fuck would do that? Why? Now I know how good it feels to run—to run away.
The air is brittle, biting, harsh. I let myself enjoy it. I run past a small boy on his father’s shoulders, talking loudly as he waves a glow stick. For a second, I want to run home and lock myself inside the under-the-stairs closet. Instead I let my mind go somewhere else forbidden: Marley’s breasts under her V-necked shirt as she breathed mere feet in front of me today. She smelled like something smooth and sweet, and when she smirked, it made me want to kiss her in the corner of her mouth. Those thoughts just cut me open, though, so I direct my mind another way.
Jesus, what I wouldn’t give right now to smack that ass and watch it bounce.
Fuck, and now I’m running with a halfie. My hand curls around the memory of her pony-tail, tight in my fist, and then I have to focus on the rhythm of my breathing. There is nothing but the sting of cool air on my cheeks, the dappled pearl of moonlight on the path ahead of me. Autumn used to be my favorite season…years and years ago.
For the next hour, I am everywhere and nowhere, streaking through the darkness like the ghost I dressed up as today: detached and translucent, achingly anonymous. As I approach the house, I see her lights on upstairs, her front curtains open slightly at one window. I think I can see her shadow, maybe. I can almost feel the warm light of her lamp.
How pathetic.
As I get into the door, greeted by Cora’s wagging tail, my phone rings in the pocket of my running shorts. I pull it out slowly. Hugh. My stomach bottoms out as I bring it to my ear.
“Gabe. How’s your weekend treating you?”
I shut the door behind me. “What happened, Hugh?”
“Has your attorney called yet?”
“No.”
He blows his breath out, and I clutch the doorframe, blinking as the room tilts.
“I’m…afraid it didn’t go your way. Your attorney read your statement. It was moving. I think the whole room thought so. But there’s no precedent that puts you in the win here. Maybe if you could have been there—”
“What. Happened.”
“I saw your lawyer at the Green Umbrella just now. You know—”
“The bar,” I manage. “Yes—and?”
“He’d had a few too many.”
“Hugh, just lay it on me, man.” My voice cracks as I shut my eyes.
“You got nothing. Your lawyer got Madeline to agree to twice a year visits of up to four days after a year away from you. So she can adjust to Oliver.”
I sink down into a crouch, then back on my ass. Fuck, I can’t breathe.
“Gabe?”
In—one two three four five and then…out—one two three four five six seven eight…
In—one two three four five and then…out—one two three four five six seven eight…
“Hey, man—”
I hang up the phone.
Cut off the phone.
Keep counting my breaths.
Then I blow a long one out, stagger to my feet, and open the closet underneath the stairs.
Marley
I’m pulling jeans on, headed to the farmer’s market café to grab some whipped-cream-topped cider with Lainey, when the floor shakes, I hear a fury-filled shout, and then it sounds like someone broke a window. For half a second, there is silence, stillness. Then the chaos starts again.
Cold sweat washes over me. Is someone burglarizing the downstairs? Then another shout seeps through the walls, amidst the cacophony of booms and shatters—and I know that voice…
For what feels like a half-hour, it sounds like he’s trashing the downstairs. I cringe as I imagine what on earth he could be breaking…what is there that much of to break?
Windows?
All the fancy crystal I’m sure fills the kitchen?
Is he drunk? On drugs? Having a fight with someone?
KRISSH!
KRISSH!
KRISSH!
On and on and on, until I’m sweating with concern, and feeling ill and twitchy.
Boom! KRISSH! Boom! KRISSH!
The pacing of the sounds is fast and furious. Unhinged.
The longer I stand and listen, the more my stomach knots up. Something must be very wrong. I wonder
what.
I tell myself it’s not my business, but I’m edgy as I step outside and start off down the stairs. As I walk toward my car, parked in the grass at the side of the house, I hear a muffled sound like—
Oh my God. Is someone crying?
I freeze mid-step, feeling cold as I turn toward a first-floor window. The curtains are drawn, but the sound of loud sobbing is unmistakable. I move closer to the window, while my ears attempt to refute what they’re hearing.
The voice is low, the sobs like choked wolf howls. I feel fear for him straight to my bones. What would have to happen to make Gabe McKellan weep?
I walk to the front door, feeling stunned. I can’t seem to knock—do I have a right to knock? should I be here at all?—so I just stand there on the front porch with my racing thoughts.
When I press my ear against the seam of the closed door, I hear clicking like dog toenails on hardwood, then the whining of his dog.
I ask myself if there’s a chance I’ll walk away. When I admit there isn’t, I hold my breath a long moment and knock twice.
“Gabe?” I cup my hands around my mouth and speak to the door’s seam. “Hey—Gabe? It’s Marley.”
I squeeze my eyes shut, cringing as I hear Coraline whine. I think I hear a muffled…something. God, I hope this doesn’t make him feel invaded. “Gabe? If you can hear me, can you let me know you’re okay? Sorry. Can you…knock?”
The dog whines once more, and my stomach clenches. Did Gabe’s dad die? Is he drinking? Using drugs? Passed out? He seemed fine earlier today. I think about his crinkling eyes behind the ghost sheet, and the way his finger stroked my palm.
“Gabe?” My voice shakes slightly. “I’m so sorry to bother you. I’m just worried. Can you—”
The thud that interrupts is loud and forceful: just a single knock.
Okay. I exhale. “Thank you.” I lean against the door frame with my eyes shut.